Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Finally back to blogging

WOW! That was quite the hiatus! After Charlee was born things got SO crazy and my blog seriously just took the back burner. I was going to write a whole detailed post about everything that has happened but that would take FOR-EV-ER.. so I am going to give y'all a quick run down on whats been going on in our neck of the desert.

I am pretty sure I wrote a post about finally being diagnosed with Crohns Disease, I have written about this before on here so if you have followed me for a while you know mostly about this journey.

We started 2016 off with scheduling surgery to remove a fistula (basically a tunnel) that was connecting my bladder to my bowels, and a large portion of inflamed bowel. My mom moved in with us so she could help me with the girls and recovery. January was pretty low key just filing taxes and getting ready for the upcoming surgery.

Feburary is when things got crazy. We decided we no longer wanted to live in our small two bedroom apartment anymore, so we finally moved into post housing and LOVE it! We got assigned a 4 bedroom, 3 bedroom home in a newer comminity off post.

But before we moved I had to have surgery. February 9th I was wheeled back into an 8 hour surgery to remove the entire right side of my colon and the top of my bladder. My appendix also came out in the process just because mine was abnormally close to my colon. Let me tell you, you don't know pain until you have been cut open, WOW! I was in the hospital for a week trying to recover, and it was not an easy road by any means. My bowels had trouble waking up and staying awake, I had a foley catheter in because I couldn't use my bladder, my lung was partially collapsed from being under anesthesia so long, I got dehydrated from pain meds and not being able to eat or drink anything for days, and so much more. Through all that hell though I feel so much better and think my Crohns is on its way to remission with the help of my Humira injections.



About a week after my surgery my Grandpa "Papa" passed away from his fight with Pancreatic Cancer. I had never been so heart broken in my life, and still miss him so much. Although it was hard to say goodbye to the most influential person I knew, I was happy he wasn't suffering anymore. My oldest daughter Kyler still talks about him frequently and will tell me odd things that make me believe he is still around me. Thats all I really want to touch on for that topic, its still a sore spot in my heart. :(


March was pretty uneventful, thank the Lord! Other than a huge Easter party at our new house.  April we celebrated Kyler turning two in true Frozen fashion. She recently became obsessed with Frozen and Elsa so we had a big party for her! She had a jump house, bbq feast and way too many presents! I seriously can not believe she is two!! She talks better than most 3 & 4 year olds, and just so incredibly smart! Ever since her party she has been obsessed with birthdays, haha!





So thats personal life whats been happening! Army life is well, too! We are still at Fort Bliss but not for much longer (boo, i love it here). My husband recently signed a contract for 6 more years in the Army but we are moving in September- back to North Carolina. Part of me is excited and part of me is really sad. I love my new house and all the friends I have made here and my neighbors. Hopefully I will find the same fun group there, I think thats all military spouses fear- moving and not finding great friends again. The upside of it is he got a GREAT bonus, so I am ready for that to come in so I can do some retail therapy! I think I deserve it.


These days I am still at home with the girls, watching too many hours of Disney jr (Mickey Mouse to be exact) and staring at laundry that I know I need to fold. Charlee is 7 months old now and still super tiny, she only weighs about 16lbs. Maybe thats normal? Kyler was a chunk so its hard to say! She is trying to learn to crawl and loves playing with her big sister. I am hoping to potty train kyler in the next few weeks, but not rushing it! So not looking forward to it haha. We spend most of our days playing with our friends up the street or outside playing and eating popsicles, thank goodness for desert living!




Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Hello World


Since I blogged about both of my pregnancies I thought I should dedicate a post to Charlee the same way I did Kyler. I mean, its only fair right?!

So as you know her name was going to be Kimber Ryann, but a few weeks before she was born we decided to change her name. My husbands middle name is Charles, so thats where Charlee came in. Granted when I was newly pregnant I told him I liked the name "Charlie" and he shot it down. It wasn't until my mom put the idea in his head that it would be sweet to name her Charlee, and he really liked the idea that she would be named after him.

Her middle name is Waynette. I know, its kind of odd but I promise the meaning behind it is not. I blogged before about my Grandfather being terminally ill with Pancreatic Cancer. We wanted to commemorate him. His name is Wayne. My mom's name is also Waynette, she always jokes about us naming babies after her and I would always tell her NO WAY! But this fit, this name felt right.

She is named after two very strong men, and has a very large name to live up to but I know she will make us proud. She is very stubborn like both of them already, haha!

Its crazy how you can have two children with the same person and they both look and act totally different. Kyler is fair skinned, light hair and eyes- she takes after Dwight's side of the family more. While Charlee is very olive toned, dark eyes and hair - like my side of the family.

I wish I could say she is an easy baby, and most days she can be but for the most part she is nothing like what I was expecting. Kyler LOVES to sleep, she always has.. Charlee only likes to really sleep at night. Yes, that part is quite nice but there are times I really need her to take more than a 15 minute nap during the day! haha, life still goes on even when she isn't sleeping and momma has stuff to do around here!

Juggling life with a toddler and infant has been.. whats the word I should use here? Hectic? Confusing? Im not sure the best word to describe it with out sounding bitter, which I am not at all. Its been a learn as you go type of deal!


Monday, December 7, 2015

The craziness of life

It has been SO long since I posted on here, and in my defense I have good reasoning! I have been SO busy since September, and not by choice. Life has thrown a few curve balls my way lately, and while its been a hectic, difficult road I am still trucking! So here is whats been up!

Obviously I have had my baby by now. We welcomed Charlee Waynette Simon into the world on September 15th at 3:51 pm. She was 4 weeks premature and weighed a tiny 5lbs 9oz, 19 inches long. Her due date was October 9th, but around labor day I began feeling a lot of pain and contractions, I was home in Arizona and almost went to the hospital there but opted to wait to come back to El Paso to be safe. I tried my hardest to wait it out and not go in, but the afternoon of the 14th I had enough.. have you ever chased a toddler around WHILE contracting? Not fun! So my husband came home from work and took me to the hospital. I seriously figured they would send me home, my contractions weren't necessarily consistant enough to be admitted, I just went for the peace of mind. Well, little did I know things were moving along regardless if I was ready or not. When the triage nurse checked me I was 4cm dilated /70% effaced and contracting. I was staying the night. When my dr came to see me he told me that if I was not to 5cm by morning I could go home, that he wouldn't induce me until I was atleast 37 weeks. Come morning sure enough I was 5cm and ready to have a baby. Insert panic. I know I had 8 months to prepare for this but I couldn't believe I was having another baby, let alone Kyler would be a big sister.. I just couldn't wrap my head around it.
I have to say this was the most peaceful and comfortable birth. I had ZERO pain, while I was contracting they weren't to the BAD point where the pain consumes you, just very uncomfortable. Plus I had an awesome epidural, so I literally felt NOTHING! I pushed twice and heard the most precious little cry, she was born. Once I saw Charlee I began crying uncontrollably, she was so tiny. I was so scared that she wasn't ready to be in this world yet. When I say she was tiny, we are talking her head fit snugly in the palm of my hand. Other than being very small (which we knew the whole pregnancy could happen due to the placenta issues) she was perfect and healthy, no NICU stay was needed and she came home with us the next day.

After I came home from having her I became very ill. My stomach issues came back with vengeance and I had a strange pain in my bladder. I waited and waited for it to go away until about the middle of October I was getting fevers and chills, night sweats and pain when using the bathroom that took my breath away and nauseous. I finally went to the ER. Upon doing a CT Scan they found a abscess in my intestines which resulted in a 4 day hospital stay. I went to a civilian hospital which i thought would take great care of me, so not the case. They brushed me off and sent me home with antibiotics. Fast forward to about two weeks ago, I was sick again. This time I went to the military hospital and WOW the care was awesome. The findings.. not so much. I was diagnosed with Crohns Disease officially after findings on my CT scan and blood work. I was once again hospitalized for a few days and now most likely needing surgery to fix a fistula connecting my bowel and bladder. These are common in Crohns patients due to the inflammation. Im not going to go into details about it, but just know things are coming out of places that they shouldn't be coming out of haha. Its so gross.

I am constantly feeling tired and worn out, I have lost a ton of weight and I havent done anything to do so, just use the bathroom. My body can't absorb the nutrients it needs leaving me to whither away it feels some days. I have my good days where I think okay maybe I am going into remission, and then there are the days where I think I need to rush off to the ER. This disease is so unpredictable and hard to manage. I have luckily found a few support groups online that have been very  helpful and I have a very good friend who also has Crohns and a toddler.

My husband and family have been super supportive, and my girls take it pretty easy on me. Well, I guess I should say Kyler does, Charlee doesn't do much other than eat and sleep!

Soon we are leaving to Fort Riley, and I am pretty excited but nervous. It sucks to leave and start over new somewhere, kind of like being the new kid in school all over again. With the move I know that means the chances of D deploying again soon rises and the stress of moving, these arent good for my disease but hopefully I can cope and handle it without flaring up.

Christmas is right around the corner and it has been SO fun celebrating with Kyler this year! She is learning who Santa is and seems to be excited about him. She is so not the girly girl I was hoping for when I was pregnant with her, sure she dresses girly but personality wise she is all tom boy! So for christmas she got an indoor trampoline, she LOVES to jump and some dinosaur toys / books. Since we are going to Arizona to spend the holiday she is getting her trampoline today when it comes in the mail and the rest on christmas day.

Surprisingly, she has taken very well to her new little sister. The first week or so was quite the challenge and we still have our bad days but for the most part she loves her and is happy to help!

I hope everyone is having a very happy holiday season. I think I may gear my blog more towards the crohns aspect of things, just because there isn't much to blog about in my home life anymore, haha. Pretty much the same thing every day around here. But we will see, this journey is going to take me somewhere just not sure where yet. If I can help others with it I would love to, its going to be a learn as I go type of thing for now. :)

Friday, August 7, 2015

31 week bump date

I was so much better at updating my pregnancy with Kyler, I guess blame the excitement of having your first baby! I haven't done a belly update since 19 weeks, so I thought it was time to do one! 


Due date:  October 9th 2015 (but I am sure she will come early)

How far along:  31 weeks!

Gender:  Baby girl, Kimber Ryann 

Total weight gain/loss: I have only gained 12 pounds so far this pregnancy, which is nice but also kind of aggravating because with all the risk of Kimber having IUGR I know I need to put on much more weight to ensure she is getting enough nutrients.

Exercise: The most exercise I do in this heat is taking my dog to the bathroom and loading my one year old into the car, its TOO HOT! But soon I am going to start walking at night. 

Stretch marks: So far I don't have any, and I am hoping it stays that way! I never got any with Kyler, so hopefully her sister will be good to me!

Swelling: OMG! Like I said above, this heat! I never really swelled with Kyler, but lately my feet and shins swell if I am outside too long or on my feet. I am staying really hydrated but it is seriously SO uncomfortable when it happens.

Maternity clothes: Unless I am in sweat pants or leggings I am definitely wearing maternity bottoms. I only have two maternity shirts, for the most part I fit into all my other tops.   

Belly button: Its doing that weird flush thing it did when I was pregnant with Kyler. Unless I am laying down, then its still inverted. 

Sleep: HORRIBLE. If I am not waking up to pee, I can't get comfortable. Not to mention the dreams.  

Food cravings:  They have really subsided, the main thing I can think of is Lemonade- which isn't really a food.  

Symptoms:  Heart burn and swelling are the main ones right now. A few braxton hick's contractions which I never had with Kyler, but other than that another easy pregnancy. 

Movement: It varies day to day, some times she is super active- others I have to push on her a little to get her going. She has kicked me a few times in my ribs and hip bone which feel really odd. 

What I miss:  Being able to get up off the couch or out of bed with ease. Being able to bend over to get something with out getting winded. 

What I’m loving:  Kyler is starting to realize there is something definitely going on with my belly and even refers to it as "tissy!" (sissy) 

What I’m looking forward to: HAVING THIS BABY! lol  

Best moment this week: Family photos. Last time I had to do belly photos solo, so it was nice to have D in them this time.

Words of wisdom: Take it easy and don't over do it, always take a break if your feeling tired! I need to remember this! Sometimes I get too busy with Kyler and things going on that I don't listen to my body telling me to take a break!

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

My first time!

I saw this fun tag on youtube, and since I have not vlogged like I planned to I decided to bring it here to my blog! If you like these type of things like I do feel free to copy the questions down below and do it too! :)


1.) Do you still talk to your first love?
I dont. The last time I spoke with him was last summer and it just felt super awkward being married and having a baby while associating with him. We were high school sweet hearts and thats where we left it for many years, so to pick up after such a long time was just a weird feeling that I don't care to revisit again. 

2) What was your first job?
My first job was at an Applebee's. My parents had bought me a car and told me the only way I could drive it was to have a job and pay for my own insurance so I found the quickest job I could. I was a hostess but it didn't last for very long, I loved cheering way too much so I opted to quit my job to focus on that.

3) What was your first car?
Speaking of! haha. My first car was a 2001 black Honda Civic coupe. I LOVED it. It was exactly what I said I wanted so when my parents found it, they actually bought it when I was 13. I learned how to drive in it and then after I quit my job my parents traded it in for a Jeep Wrangler for my mom. RUDE! ;)

4) Who was the first person who texted you today?
I havent texted anyone yet, but I have Facetimed with my mom.

5) Who's the first person you thought of this morning?
Kyler, she usually is the first person on my mind every morning. 

6) Who was your first grade teacher?
I seriously can't remember, I want to say it was some random name that started with a K but I can't remember if that was first or second grade. 

7) Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
To California, my dad lived there for a couple years so I had to fly to visit him.

8) Who was your first best friend & do you still talk to him/her?
Her name was Sarah Larkin, and no, I have no idea what even happened to her. We were friends from about 2nd grade through 5th and then I moved. 

9)Where was your first sleepover?
I believe with my cheer team when I was in elementary school before a big competition.

10) Who was the first person you talked to today?
My husband.

11) Who's wedding were you in for the first time?
I have never been in anyones wedding, sadly. haha.

12) What was the first thing you did this morning?
Got out of bed and poured Kyler some milk.

13) What was the first concert you ever went to?
The Dixie Chicks Fly Tour. It was pretty awesome, I was in the fifth grade.

14) First Broken Bone?
I broke my arm when I was about 4. I was supposed to be taking a nap but opted to roll around on the bed instead. Well sure enough I feel off and the story goes I went to tell my mom but she thought I was just lying. After a few hours of crying she finally took me and when the Doctor indeed said it was fractured I looked at her and said "see mom, I told you I broked my bone!"

15) First Piercing?
My ears, but that is pretty cliche for a girl.. Other than that the only other piercing I have had was my tongue. 

16) First Foreign Country?
I have never left U.S. soil and don't plan on it really if I don't have to! 

17) First movie you remember seeming in the theaters?
Small Soldiers. You know, the one where the little toy soldiers try to take over the neighborhood or something. 

18) When was your first detention?
I have never had detention, I don't even think my high school had it.

19) Who was your first roommate?
My best friend Zack and his boyfriend Jeffrey.

20) What was the first lesson you ever took?
Cheerleading








My FIRST time TAG questions:

1) Do you still talk to your first love?
2) What was your first job?
3) What was your first car?
4) Who was the first person who texted you today?
5) Who's the first person you thought of this morning?
6) Who was your first grade teacher?
7) Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
8) Who was your first best friend & do you still talk to him/her?
9)Where was your first sleepover?
10) Who was the first person you talked to today?
11) Who's wedding were you in for the first time?
12) What was the first thing you did this morning?
13) What was the first concert you ever went to?
14) First Broken Bone?
15) First Piercing?
16) First Foreign Country?
17) First movie you remember seeming in the theaters?
18) When was your first detention?
19) Who was your first roommate?
20) What was the first lesson you ever took?

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Whirlwind

The past two weeks I have been on a mini vacation back home with my mom in Arizona. It was so nice to get away and we even got to spend four days on the beach in San Diego thanks to my Great-Aunt and Granny. Ill do a post all about that later, this post is a about something different.

Before I left to head back to El Paso, my mom got a phone call about my Papa (her dad). He apparently was not feeling very well and was very jaundice, after a lot of begging on my mom part she convinced him to drive up to the city (he lives in Sierra Vista, close to Fort Huacucha) she lives in for more testing at a bigger hospital.

Unfortunately the out come is not good. He has pancreatic cancer with a six to eight month life expectancy rate. Every time I say it out loud I am still in the same amount of shock I was when I found out. I mean, my papa? No, he is a tough, mean, old Cowboy- there is no way he has cancer. Thats seriously how I feel, but clearly not the case.

My Papa is one of the biggest influences in my life. I grew up living on his land with horses and rodeos. He was harsh and tough but loving and sweet. My fondest memories are Christmas mornings with him, this huge man turned to mush on the holiday. I will miss him so much.

Its been a struggle for me to be strong for my mom, she is the epitome of a "daddies girl" and I know this is killing her. Between sadness and pregnancy hormones its been very hard for me to keep it together, but I am trying so hard to be a rock for her. To top it all off my mom is having neck surgery this week to replace two disc's. I am beyond scared and worried for her, and the recovery process is long and seems to be pretty tough.

This week has been full of tears and heart ache but I am hoping seeing Kimber today on ultrasound will help me feel better, plus my baby shower this weekend! I just ask that if you read this you say a small prayer for my papa. I don't expect a miracle, I just want him to be comfortable and to enjoy the rest of his time with us.